What the hell I’m doing here?

Why my mind is so severe?
dressed in white
the angel-child
in this awful lonely night
so confused and yet sincere
what the hell I’m doing here?

what’s the point of this gold sun
on this alley with no gods
forced myself to have some fun
feel so stupid in this dawn
what are anyway the odds?
only shadows -just a yawn.
and that s that.

all that abstract of my thoughts
unsaid words that you can’t read
strangers try to guess my soul
i don’t care what they all think
i just smile and smoke and blink.
how they re wrong, oh how they’re wrong!
and politely I am gone.

in this pitch black awful night
with my velvety smile on
so confused and yet sincere
isn’t life funny, my dear ?
what the hell i m doing here ?

 

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Wild cats

relax.
take a deep breath.
no logic to stare at wild cats,
my love.

“My name is Kira”
she smiles with wine lips
lost in fake dreams
smoke, people and screams

*
he’s always surrounded

by carnival clowns
great ol’pals!

alone in his bed
even when its shared
with puppets of sand
’till the end

“i want to look in his eyes
that’s all i want”
to see if he s wild,

or if he hides lies

he drinks a lot
didn t cared what he got
has a crazy past
he can’t make things last

he’s not scared of death
hates people of sand
keep feelings locked
so modest and proud

he sleeps on the floor
and stares at the wall
he thinks we are dust
of freedom ,love, lust.

there is no logic
to stare at wild cats
and not bags of sand

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Carpe diem, you fools

wounded since birth
staring at the rain

too desperate, too fragile

too afraid

cold, darkness, school
rules, religion, sacrifices
structures, papers, whores
broken hearts and bones
against us- all the odds

the real history of men?
there s no after life.
just one miracle :
this moment
that s all we have
tic-tac
and then’s gone.

living on a thin crust of land
eating poison and sand

the damned

buffoons of fate
life s calling
and we re late

this is Heaven
and its Hell
in your head
stop playing dead

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