I’ m scared of myself, of what I might do
Today
Maybe forget, maybe regret
Maybe leave home to my wife
(or maybe just drink and faint dead)
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I don’t take life seriously
I think all this theater is fake
No Satan, Angels, Magic
Just A Freudian mistake
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When I am sober
I love wide spaces and books
They give me the huge urge to scream
To kill the illusion – the dream –…
(“within a dream”) like Poe said, you fools !
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1.How did you start writing ?
Since a child I liked art. I was painting, singing, dancing. I wanted to make a lot of things, if i could;
“Why are we made- I wondered – to live on some strict rules until we become robots and then what? We die? Why did your parents advise you to go on a certain path, when you – maybe – want to go to the opposite direction? Can’t we have more then one profession? What’s more important: what the world wants, or what do I want?” I was thinking about that when I was 13-14 years old, but I kind of feel the same way today.
And I did exactly what I wanted, became everything that I wanted, followed my own dreams, and I don’t regret it even though I had my hesitation/confusing moments.
It’s difficult to write and publish in this country. But not impossible.
And even if you publish your novel here in Romania, you can’t make money out of art, this is a known fact.
Besides writing I also finished Law School, I’m a tattoo and makeup artist, I learned 5 foreign languages, I sang in Greece in taverns with my cousins, I painted, I traveled and saw the world, I did everything that I felt doing, and I had tremendous fun. I still do – said Sophia with a grim on her face.
2. When did you started writing and what was it about?
I wrote since I’ve discovered the alphabet. My first writings were short stories for school.
That was the moment when it all started. When I was a kid, my dad was reading to me Greek legends and I remember that they fascinated me tremendously. On the other hand, my mum was telling me stories from the Russian and Romanian folklore, so I guess that was the reason that developed my crazy imagination.
I was always picturing in my mind mystical Gods and fearless heroes.
My first “serious” attempt of writing was actually an essay inspired by the novel written by Antoine de Saint Exupery, ‘The little prince’. I got an A+ and the astonishing of all my classmates including my teacher – I can still recall that moment of “glory”.
3.And then you decided it was time to become a writer?
Not at all. I was bound to do it for school, but even tough I loved writing, I was suppressing that feeling.
I was feeling rather odd/embarrassed when someone was reading my short stories, and many times after writing them, I had the weird habit of tearing the sheets apart, so that my parents wouldn’t find them.
I first showed my writings at 22, to a dear friend of mine.
4.Did you published your first book then?
No, I published at 23 after my novel was finished.
5.What inspires you?
Everything, a hint of a moment, a talk with a person, something that I’ve seen or heard, a feeling maybe; music inspires me a lot: classical music, especially – Beethoven or Chopin – they put me in almost a mystic frame of mind.
And then the “madness” starts where I just want to be left alone, me, my music, my pen and my papers. I love to hand-write, it seems more personal. Even though it’s harder to rewrite everything on the laptop –especially with novels – that’s tough.
6.How did writing/being a writer changed you/your life?
When I was a teenager, even though I was popular, it didn’t felt quite right amongst people. From time to time I needed to escape in a perfect world, a dark gloomy Victorian world with gowns, etiquette, a world with candles, not electricity, books not television… and then, in my solitude I was writing.
And that felt right, being in a melancholic frame of mind. People say that melancholy is something bad. It’s not. It’s a sort of happy sadness, I always say.I like to wonder in the solitude of my mind and give world something back.
Writing changed me, of course. After I published my novel, I got reactions from the audience.
When someone can take some time off and relax with your book in their hands, or being inspired, or learn something from my writings, when I get a positive feedback from someone, then I am happy.
No matter how much I’ll be around, my writings will survive me and will be here maybe, who knows, 100 more years after me –or maybe more. Who knows what beautiful youth will find and read my book in 2113?!
Greek -Romanian writer, painter,aspiring tattoo and makeup artist, polyglot, lover of everything that involves astrology, archeology, occult arts.
Growing up was always fun because I was caught between two worlds, two nations, two mentalities, two lands.
As a child I was a paradox, as I am now. I was writing and directing short stories for my friends. My background was great because I had a diversity of choices. Was inspired by my Romanian Gothic stories about demons and vampires, and the beautiful stories of ancient Greek Gods.
I liked the audience and the attention, but I also was a loner, loved my solitude and long walks inside my mind.
Caught between grandeur dreams and the reality, I always think about things and mentally write poems, scripts and ideas of novels and stories, also I love to feel as only a Scorpio does. I do believe in Ancient Astrology but not on horoscopes.
I started writing more at the age of 14 after I fell in love with reading – about anything and everything. Mostly deep dark poems about meaning of life, love and every feeling I was having. I was trying to get to dissect them with my pen on a sheet of paper. No one knew about my writing.
I went to University and got a Law Master degree that I never use, because I preferred loose, creative jobs rather then a career in the Law field.
At the University I met my best friend Mady, and I was spending tremendous amount of time with her, showing her my poems and writings. She was the first person who believed in me and convinced me to publish my novel.
I published my first novel at 23, called “Love between two worlds” (“Iubire între două lumi” ), written in Romanian language.
Then I followed my career as an online journalist, writing for fashion magazines like Cosmopolitan and Elle, reviews, and many other articles.
At 29 years old my mind never rests.
I like to help young writers to get noticed and published.
Now I ‘m working at my next novel and I am being involved in many artistic projects.
Sofia Goublias Official 